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August 7, 2007
Shake it Like a Polaroid
Most mornings are not difficult for me. I am the kind of person whose alarm goes off and I am up- it doesn't matter if I am tired. Most of the time, my body snaps into action, and even if I trip on a cat en route to the bathroom, I'm pretty awake and aware.
Yesterday I opened my opened my eyes and felt myself floating in that half sleep where the blankets and the pillow and your unconscious husband all feel like the most comfortable thing on earth. The a/c was on, the sun shone through the slats in our blinds, and for a brief second, I lay there at complete peace. Then, like a polaroid, the world slowly seeped into view and obscure objects and thoughts took on shape and structure. As the details filled themselves in, I remembered all of the stresses that have been resting upon us these past few weeks, and within seconds found myself wishing for that semi-consciousness again.
I keep reminding myself that there are some kinds of stress that you should be thankful for, or at the very least cognizant of the fact that you are lucky to have them to contend with. Still, when things weigh on you, it is often hard to crawl out from under them and remember that they are simply hurdles toward a more fruitful life. None of that rational thinking really makes me feel any better right now. And as my father always likes to say, "That's why they call it life."
callalillie's going on a break for the next few days. Maybe a little more. The things on my mind are not material that I can ethically write about, so once they work themselves out a bit- which they will- I'll be back.
Posted by callalillie at August 7, 2007 3:59 PM | Introspect
Posted by: jenblossom at August 7, 2007 5:09 PM
Enjoy your break. It's always good to just check out for a little while and readjust the perspective-o-metre. Looking forward to seeing you when you're able to return.
Posted by: Marcia at August 7, 2007 5:46 PM
Take a cue from the felines and get in some power naps! Have a good hiatus.
Posted by: Jen at August 7, 2007 10:54 PM
what you need is a new kitten.
Posted by: ChrisG at August 8, 2007 11:00 AM
I hope whatever stress that's keeping you busy, will resolve itself soon. A break is usually a good thing - just don't dwell in your misery too much.
And, remember, we are never dealt with cards we can't handle. Sometimes it's tough to be a tough cookie :)
Peace to your soul. I'll be checking in every now and then...
Posted by: Asli at August 8, 2007 4:51 PM
no more cats!!!!
no worries, i am not miserable by any means, just very focused on a few things. i'll be back soon.
Posted by: corie at August 8, 2007 5:07 PM
