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June 14, 2007

Hum.

Sometimes life passes by so quickly. It's crazy, but the grant that pays my job will run out in eleven months. Even wilder, I left my old job for this one over two years ago; it’s nuts that by next May three years will have passed.

Here's the thing. As summers are oft to illicit a certain sadness and anxiety in me (the reason for which, I am not sure), I have been overwhelmed by a series of personal pressures since we have returned from our vacation. What will the next job be? Will I finish my MA in time? Where are we going to live? Should I really write this book I've been writing paper after paper about? Or do I get a big kid job again? Like one that would help pay for a potentially large mortgage. God, I really miss having a big kid job. If there is one thing I can't stand, it is being in limbo. For the past two years I thought that I was resting comfortably in that limbo...but now, more and more, I am realizing that the real way station is where I am now and will be for the next few months- a place that is not entirely negative at all, for it presents a great magnitude of options, but that is equally scary in its ambiguity.

So, this is a rather narrow question, though I guess anyone who has worked with or within a big, ever-changing bureaucratic machine might have input on...after years of working around and sometimes indirectly for a large organizational [educational] system, is it worth considering the option of working within it?

Posted by callalillie at June 14, 2007 7:21 AM | Inquiry , Introspect

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