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August 3, 2004
Release
I have felt a bit off lately. For several weeks, I have been struggling to pinpoint what seemed so odd, as though something in my life had shifted or part of me had changed. This weekend, I realized that I was missing a stack of photographs, which is very much not like me. I pulled apart the house searching for them, appalled by the fact that I had misplaced the very items of documentation that have kept my world, since a very early age, in order.
These were images from my not so distant pasta period that very much defined methat now feels so far away that at times I wonder if I ever lived through it. Suddenly, things clicked. In the act of losing and searching for these artifacts, I discovered that my life has dramatically shifted. Six years ago is now a world away. The way in which I think, go about my day, balance my perspective, is that of a very different person. This blew my mind.

The Northampton State Hospital sits on the edge of Smith College campus. As a first year, its gaping, broken windows and empty, soulful courtyards enthralled me. The asylum began my obsession with abandoned buildings. It also helped define my four years of college, standing as a metaphor for how I would feel and the events that would unfold; NSH was almost more of a campus to me than Smiths Olmstead-designed grounds. To this day, when I think of Northampton, I think of the hospital first.
The Northampton Lunatic Asylum opened its doors in 1856.
It was designed on the Kirkbride hospital model, which was employed at Danvers State and many other mental institutions across the country. The asylum was meant to be a therapeutic environment for patients, stressing physical labor (livestock tending, cooking, cleaning, laundry) and humane treatment by doctors and nurses.
However, by the turn of the century, NSH was a last stop for the severely mentally ill. The hospital began to use more aggressive therapies, such as hydrotherapy, pharmaceuticals, lobotomies, and electroshock. By the late 20th century, NSH was overcrowded and under funded. It began to close its doors in the late 1970s/early 1980s, and by the mid-1990s all of the patients had been phased out.
The relationship of Smith College to the hospital was always rather odd. Rumor has it that, when the hospital was still active, there was a double-sided sign on the campus border. On the Smith side, it read: Danger: Hospital Patients. On the hospital side, someone had written: Danger. Smith College Students. As a student, I spent a considerable amount of time lurking about the grounds and poking around inside.
In November 2000, an artist named Anna Schuliet produced an amazing memorial for the Northampton State Hospital and the patients, doctors, and nurses that had walked its halls. After a rather fascinating symposium and former patients forum, over 1,000 people gathered around the main hospital building.
Music filtered from the broken windows and boarded up doors, from the dilapidated roof and every other crevice of the old asylum. The sweet, mournful notes of Bach's Magnificat rose from hundreds of strategically placed speakers within the first floor of the main building. Snow began to gently fall. It was one of the most ethereal events I have ever experiencedan undefinable release. After that day, I never returned.
They are knocking down Northampton State in order to build affordable housing in the area. To my knowledge, this was supposed to happen over a year ago, though my townie sources state that the building still stands. About a year ago, I unconsciously began to sever my ties with Northampton. Whereas I had visited Smith multiple times in the years after graduation, it suddenly felt wrong; I needed space. I needed to draw the line between past and present.

Thankfully, however, I found those missing photographs. They were nestled beneath several balls of yarn in a box far off in the back of my closet. I spent about an hour sifting through them, then placed them beneath the yarn once more. Sometimesnot always, but sometimesthe past should remain buried until you are ready for its release.
I am hoping to get up to Northampton this fall.
Some Northampton State Hospital Info:
Northampton State Hospital
The day the Hospital Sang
1856.org
Amazing photographs by Shaun OBoyle
Northampton State Hospital Burial Project
Ghost Town
Posted by callalillie at August 3, 2004 6:24 AM | History
, Introspect
Oh wow! I'm enthralled by abandoned buildings as well- especially 'creepy' ones like this. I can imagine all sorts of people that occupied this building and the troubles, sorrows, memories that live inside it yet. I also understand about what you mean drawing a line between past & present. I moved back to my college town about 2 years ago and every time I would go up to my old stomping grounds, I felt a little sick to my stomach. I have decided it's best to leave some things in the past.
Posted by: carrster at August 3, 2004 9:22 AM
If you're ever near Northampton, MA, I highly recommend checking out the asylum, if you can get onto the grounds. It's a beautiful building and campus. When it was shut down, a ton of stuff was left behind, which makes it all the more creepy and wonderful. My favorite times to go there were during or right after ice storms.
Posted by: corie at August 3, 2004 9:34 AM
That's a great postcard...
Posted by: ccs178 (Chris) at August 3, 2004 12:28 PM
Posted by: Jeff at August 3, 2004 1:23 PM
this post and picture remind me of the old buffalo psychiatric center on buffalo's west side. like northampton, it is right next to a school (suny buffalo state college). the building itself is in pretty bad shape, but i think they've stablized bits of it the towers the last couple of years. they also installed some lights for the 2 towers at night so you can see from some of the main roads around the center, it kinda gives an imposing creepy feeling. the complex was desined by h.h. richardson, and is actually a few blocks from the main park of buffalo's park system designed by f.l. olmstead. here's a link to info if interested. http://ah.bfn.org/a/forest/400/
Posted by: jason at August 3, 2004 3:28 PM
It's really interesting that Olmstead designed so many different kinds of campuses-- many of them asylums. There's a great book called Gracefully Insane that spends a chapter or two discussing Olmstead's design of McLean Hospital. Golly, I love that book. I think I'll reread...
Posted by: corie at August 3, 2004 9:58 PM
Posted by: Jerry at August 3, 2004 10:50 PM
I'm a big fan of urban exploration and loved your post. So descriptive and interesting. I'm going to purchase Gracefully Insane this week and read it asap. Thanks.
Posted by: Nia at August 6, 2004 8:22 PM
i didn't know you went to smith-
i went to all women's as well- mills college.
Posted by: nicole at August 7, 2004 11:48 PM
yep, that i did :) i think my cousin went to mills.
Posted by: corie at August 9, 2004 2:10 PM