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February 9, 2004
Sleeping City
I'd begun to prepare another historical posting for today, however I couldn’t finish it, and the reason is now the topic of this morning's post.
I'm fucking tired. I can't seem to get enough sleep, even when I'm able to commandeer 6+ hours. As a veteran insomniac, I'm taken aback by my continual exhaustion, post-full night sleep. In fact, it leads me to ask myself: If I'm always going to be this tired, then why sleep in the first place?
Last night, after a weekend attempt at reclaiming energy (which didn't happen), I thought about my all-too-frequent fatigue for a while, pondering its origins and when, perhaps, I can expect it to go away. I came up with the following:
- Sustained winter depresses me
- Sustained gray, cold weather makes me want to curl into a ball and disappear
- I already hate winter and it's only the beginning of February, whereas usually this climactic despair doesn't creep into my bones until the late Feb/early March
- I need to go on vacation
- That vacation must be somewhere warm with a beach, quiet, free of people and structure
GG's response to my woes last night was: This is a sign that you need the West Coast. Well, yes and no. I need the West Coast weather to come to NYC. But more than anything, I fear that I'm reaching winter-burnout all too early this year. The result is this consistent sleepiness, of which I cannot seem to crawl out of.
Posted by callalillie at February 9, 2004 9:07 AM | Mental Health
at least the days are getting longer. no more of that dark at 4 crap.
btw, the new look is quite nice. very spring!
Posted by: tien at February 9, 2004 9:26 AM
thanks. i guess i was thinking about spring subconsciously.
light isn't enough! i need 80 degree + weather...NOW.
Posted by: corie at February 9, 2004 2:27 PM
This morning I noticed that the sun was rising far enough north that it reaches the south side of 116th St, if only for a few minutes. Spring is on the way!
That said, spending a week at a nice warm beach sounds very appealing right now.
Posted by: joe s at February 9, 2004 3:41 PM
I love how yu can judge the change in season from Harlem/UWS...I miss seeing that all the time. Brooklyn often feels very flat. I should spend more time on my roof.
Posted by: corie at February 10, 2004 9:40 AM
Well, when I was a professor I encouraged my weather and climate students to look at the sky ("It's okay, really. You'll see all sorts of stuff."). I feel I have an obligation to those students to notice those sorts of things. It's a good obligation.
Posted by: joe s at February 10, 2004 1:29 PM
